I know it's a blip, I know it the fact I'm pre menstrual has a lot to answer for, but I'm so FUCKING SICK of it.
Clusterfuck of a day with waking up with sky high blood sugar (no reason, apart from what my hormones are doing before my period screwing with liver outputs of glucose) so feeling like complete and utter shit, have clashing hospital appointments which are both significantly important, and the one I try to move can't find me on their system, and the GP has AFUCKINGGAIN failed to prescribe enough of my blood sugar test strips despite my clinic writing to them to say I need to check bloods 10 - 12 times a day, and a 15 minute wait on a fucking automated phone line going in Kafkaesque circles trying to book an appointment with a doctor to hammer this issue out but no appointments are available.
I hate it, I really fucking hate it, I deal with it with good humour most days but today is SUCKING FUCKING ARSE.
Close to tears because I feel fucking incompetent and really I know I'm not - there are too many variables from competing things demanding my attention - but it is so, so, so stressful.
Sorry I need somewhere to let off steam, and my close chronically ill friends (who get it) are dealing with stressful shit of their own at the moment, so don't want to whine at them.