This can’t be normal?

[kindnessisnotaweakness]

Every month, a few days before my period, I totally lose the plot.

I become suicidal, desperately angry, hateful, and in total despair. I can’t shake it, until it comes to a natural end (normally the day my period starts).

The rest of the time I’m quite low mood but not exactly depressed, just over tired, and generally run down by the general day to day of work, kids, housework etc.

I have only recently noticed a pattern on my mood / cycle (I’m not very observant). What the hell can I do? I can’t be suicidal every month, I’m terrified I’ll do something stupid if it gets any worse.

My OH is completely unsupportive so there’s no point asking him to help me.

It's possible it's something called PMDD. Google it, there are online support groups.
I thought I had it but it went away after my thyroid problem was diagnosed and treated.

Are you on any hormonal birth control? That can either help or hinder. Some natural supplements like evening primrose can help too.

Have you been to see your doctor?

It's PMDD google it x

www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/premenstrual-dysphoric-disorder-pmdd/

I haven’t heard of PMDD before - I’ve literally just spent a couple of mins googling and it sounds exactly what I’m going through each month.

I haven’t looked at cures yet. Fingers crossed there’s something I can do.

That link is so helpful, thank you. I can’t believe I’ve never heard of this before! My OH thinks I’m bipolar!