Help me sort my life out!

[Hairytangerine]

Generally feel really unmotivated in life. I am not depressed or physically unwell. I am just generally struggling with motivation.

Work - worked in same job as a physio manager for NHS for the past 10 years. I literally know the job inside out. Nothing is a challenge, I used to think I had the perfect job as for years I loved it. Felt dead motivated. Now I have to drag myself in and can’t wait to finish!

Home life - dh and two teens. Again I can’t be bothered to do anything, housework, go out. I just want to relax at home.

Am I just lazy? I just want to be able to get up normally and go to work but it seems such a battle.

I don’t think I can be depressed as was quite suicidal a couple of years ago and started on citalooram 40mg and I still take it.

Take iron tablets and bloods all fine.

Any advice sort my motivation out.

Actually, my first stop would be your GP for a meds review - not feeling bothered about anything can be the start of a slide into depression and you might need a meds tweak, especially if your weight/diet/lifestyle have changed since the original prescription - my DH has epilepsy and he has the same issue where slight changes to his body or lifestyle can result in him not being ‘quite right’ and his meds needing a tweak. It’s like balancing a complex equation...

What was the last new thing you learnt? When was the last time you redecorated your bedroom/changed your hairstyle/went somewhere you’ve never been before?

This is the thing I have no interest in amything

You obviously feel it’s a problem, fake it till you make it might give you the start you need. Sometimes we just need routine and not much going on, sort of ‘recharging batteries’, yes, it might be boring and numbing, but maybe that’s what you need. Having depression does not equal with feeling suicidal, I was depressed, never felt it. It’s a chemical inbalance. I would go back to the GP, it might be something as simple as the citalopram dulling your feelings.

How much exercise are you getting?

Can you take a little time off?

When you say you just want to relax at home, how are you relaxing?

I run when I can get the volitian to do it and do feel better. Follow slimming world and feel better have structure to do that. Fake it until you make it, is good advice