I posted a few weeks ago about having already booked to visit my ex's country with our baby daughter. But last time I was there we had a huge fight on the last day and he didn't ask about her for 5 days after gettin home.
Because he hadn't asked about her, my mum told me she would babysit and because I've had a stressful year with alot going wrong she told me to go without DD and enjoy time with my friends there (I've had friends there since before i met him)
I had decided I would go without DD but for a week instead of the original 2 weeks planned.
Couple of days after deciding, ex has now been texting everyday asking about DD and has kept this up for the past 3 weeks. So now I feel guilty and I don't know what to do again. Take DD as originally planned, or go without her and enjoy some time with friends while I have a chance, as I haven't been able to do this since she was born and she is 5 months.
My friends and mum still say to go without her as DD's father doesn't really get muxh time with her anyway as he works. Just a few hours in the morning. Whereas I am now feeling guilty if I go without her then I'm taking time with her dad away from her.
I would like a break but worried I would feel guilty of leaving her and wouldn't enjoy.
But also if I take her then I wouldn't be able to go out. But I would still be abroad so can't really complain. I've had alot going on recently and my head is fried.... I just can't make a straight decision and wondered if anyone could give advice who wasn't biased. (My friends and mum hate my ex)
Thank you