Handhold please someone. Suicide again in the family.

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Just that. I'm in shock and having flashbacks.

Last night my OH's brother died by suicide. 4 years ago my OH almost succeeded in his suicide attempt. Their dad also attempted suicide in the past.

I'm devastated for my BIL and his wife. And it feels so close to home I feel sick to my stomach.

Need to be strong for OH and kids (who've also lost parents/grandparents in last three years) but am feeling totally devastated.

I am so sorry colouringpro

I'm so sorry to hear that colouringpro how very sad.

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Oh, that's so desperately sad. Sending you and all your family unMN-tey hugs at this awful time. Xxxx

Hand hold from me, so sorry .

Flashbacks sound understandable, hope they lessen as the shock begins to subside.

Hand hold from me too. It’s brutal and you will be numb for a while, my BIL also took his own life 3 months ago. I’m so sorry it’s triggering flashbacks for you about your husband’s attempt. The devastation ripples through the family but you will be strong and you will get through this.

Thanks so much.

So sorry to hear that Elle brutal is spot on. Only early 50s too.

Feeling dreadful this pm. Kids ok though.

Same as my BIL, 52. It feels so incredibly surreal doesn’t it, and life goes on all around and you feel frozen/suspended and wonder if you’ll ever feel like you used to ever again. But you will. I found it is a completely different type of grief to one I have experienced before because of how he died. Sending strength.

Thanks so much. Yes it is totally different to other grief I've experienced. That in itself is one big thing.

But everything relating to OH flooding back on top means I am literally sat staring today.

Feeling so shattered today. WIBU to take tomorrow off work? My head feels like it's going to explode . Also want to be able to visit my sister in law.

So sorry. Ex FIL took his own life and it was an awful traumatic time.

Go to your GP and get signed off for a bit if you need to - one day isn’t enough to process something as big as this.

I know how your feeling. My BIL did this in Jan this year, closely followed by my sister attempting twice but failing despite seriously doing her best to succeed. I'm still numb, and between the two of them they have torn our family apart. Sending

Yes, take tomorrow off work at least, or like Atrocious says go and see your GP to get signed off. This is massive, combined with the flashbacks to what your DH did. It took me at least a week before I stopped feeling like I was on another planet.

So sorry to hear of others with similar experience, sending love.

I am thinking you might be right about getting signed off for the week, I don't feel quite as spaces as I did, but taking care of the kids and OH and me feels like a lot. Cooking lunch today was a lot harder and slower than normal.

I'm completely dreading the funeral. We will have buried 3 from OH's family in just over 2 years. Only 2 left . Last funeral was only 3 months ago

OH's family are so fucked up

SOBS are brilliant. Survivors of bereavement by suicide.

They have a helpline that is wonderful.

Stay strong

Thanks wonga

Going to visit sister in law today and for some reason my anxiety has gone through the roof

My dd who has really been struggling with her mental health for the last couple of years has been hit hard and lost ground on the progress she's made over the last six months. It's so awful and so unfair