Feeling so down and posting for support

[MozzchopsThirty]

I suffer from PTSD and have been on meds for 8 years (sertraline)
I normally go through ups and downs, sometimes takes a few days for me to pull myself together and then I'm ok.

But this has been going on for about 3 weeks now and I don't seem to be getting out of it.
In the past few weeks I've had:
A health scare which is still under investigation
Persistent abdominal pain
A shit holiday with dcs where they behaved like animals
To ask 22 ye old dd to move out as she's lazy, disrespectful and undermines me
Anxiety over my relationship ending (it's still going)
Trouble at work that affected me but had no support (not first time this has happened)
My narc mother demanding I contact her over her cancer diagnosis
Exh playing clever manipulative mind games over my parenting

Sorry that's long, but I can't see a way out right now
I can't even identify any feelings

Not even worthy of a reply on MN

this sums up my life

How old are your dc who went on holiday with you? Mine were a nightmare but back at school now, thank goodness

Have you spoken to anyone IRL about how you’re feeling? X

I hope you can find the help you need, have you tried reaching out to mental health charities or your GP? They could refer you for further help, hang on in there

Have you seen your GP/MH specialist recently? It may be worth a visit, and let them know everything you've told us here and how you feel. Maybe they can offer you some additional therapy to get you through this especially difficult time.

Have you had any help for the PTSD other than meds? A close family member had it, and was helped by gradual exposure therapy supported by talking therapy. I've also known more than one person with PTSD who was helped by EMDR.

This sounds like the people around you are so used to your inability to stand up and set firm boundaries for yourself, that they're happy to use you as a doormat.

You need help with coping strategies .

Contact your MH consultant's staff and ask for an appointment.

Not really, not all of it
I don't want to change my medication as every time I've come off it I feel awful

I'm going to see if I can see my counsellor

I'm sorry you're going through such a rubbish time :(
It's hard when you feel like people don't care (people do, promise!).
I wish there was something someone could do to make you feel better. I know from past experience that sometimes someone saying something nice can help a little (so I'm trying that).
Stay safe - you CAN get through this xx

Thank you
I just feel so terribly sad
I'm normally such a strong person and I don't feel like me right now
Everything is awful

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time I really think you should go back to your counsellor. Have you ever tried cbt?

It's sounds like you are being put to the test at the moment. You sound tough, a strong woman. Keep going you will come out the other side. Ask for help, be it your GP, councillor or friend.

Talk to your daughter, tell her pull her weight, she is a woman at 22 years of age, time to start acting like one.

Be kind to yourself, just get through one day at a time at the moment until you feel stronger again. Take care x