Anxiety medication in pregnancy

[Mynameisnotthis]

I’ve had a few threads recently talking about my health anxiety.

I’m a bit of a mess really. I can function day to day thanks to CBT but I feel like it’s all a pretence. I’m secretly still obsessing about things. After 3 weeks convinced I have throat cancer, I’ve totally had enough.
I’ve been lucky and have been referred to a clinical psychologist due to what I experienced with the birth of my first DC. Had first appointment last week when I was told that my current issues are definitely linked to my experiences back then.
I’ve already asked GP about medication and was told I really need to be bad to be prescribed medication in pregnancy. But who decides how bad I need to get?
I’m so sick of this. I just get over obsessing over one thing and promise myself I won’t do it again and BAM a couple of days later I start on something else. I was calming down on the throat cancer then last night saw that I have a purple scratch looking thing at the back of my tongue and now I’m spiralling again.
My DH is surely going to lose patience with me soon and I’m not exactly being fun mum to my oldest. I’m not due to see the psychologist again for 3 weeks.

I just don’t know what to do next.

Sorry I also meant to ask, do any of you have experience of starting anxiety medication while pregnant? I’m 20 weeks

Wee bump incase anyone is around this evening to talk about this

Sorry no real help or advice here but just wanted to say can you speak to your midwife about additional support? Or your GP? Sorry if u have already done so and just to say thinking of you.

Thanks Cake, that’s very kind of you. The GPs keep directing me to online resources and I used them initially but think I’m beyond them now. The midwife referred me to the perinatal mental health team 14 weeks ago and I’ve yet to hear from them. I doubt they would offer better mental health support than the psychologist mind you.
I’m in an annoying place where I recognise what I am doing and can rationalise a bit but can’t stop new cycles and then keep going round and round. To be honest I just want a bit of peace from it. I’m wondering if medication is the way to go but can’t help the guilt I feel even thinking about it.

I think your gp might be being a bit over cautious. I took citraloplan and mirtazapine in pregnancy. I also took shit loads of diazepam.
I saw the perinatal mental health team too.

Have you properly explained how bad it is to your gp and mw? Go back and lay it on the line for them. bIG time. Get the support you need.

Good luck kx

Thanks KatyN. I think I’ve been doing a good job of ‘appearing to be functioning’. And because the anxiety is about my health, I’ve normally found a symptom to obsess over at the GP appt and then mention the anxiety as a kind of add on. So no I don’t think the GP really gets it. I find it kinda hard as they don’t even turn round from their PC to speak to me when I go in.
Do you mind me asking, were you already on the medication before you were pregnant?

Thanks again @KatyN. I spoke to the psychologist today and she’s supportive of medication so I’m planning to see my GP to arrange. Hopefully that helps take it down a notch or 2.
I’m due at work tomorrow, not sure how that’s going to go with me feeling like this