Single parent & back to school woes

[ManeNachger]

Hello.

I just feel like writing this to be heard. I dont have too many friends and I am not sure if the people I do know can really empathise with me.

Feel quite low today. I have spent lots of time with my family recently (older siblings and their DPs & kids) & as a result I just look at them happily married, working as a team and feel such a failure and alone.

A contributing factor is the dreaded back to work feeling.

Also feel very inadequate as a parent & that I am letting my kids down and not setting them up for a good life.

I feel like an inadequate person. Not good enough to be a human able to "compete" in life. By compete - I just mean in order to win success for myself like a stable home etc - not in comparison with others.

I feel scared again of being alone.

Sorry to waste space writing.

Op I know exactly where you are coming from. I’m a single parent too and it’s hard. I look my at friends and family and there happy relationships and I’m jealous. I made stupid poor choices and I’ve dug myself into a hole that I cant get out of.

All we can do is make sure we give our children the best life we can, a life filled with love and happiness.

Don't feel bad! Easier said than done, I know lol. but stop comparing yourself to others. They have their own burdens. And might quietly been jealous of how you are able to parent without the hassle of an irritating partner who looks good in public but fails at home.

Thanks homemadearmy for empathising. That meand alot. It is not all doom and gloom - it just feels like that occassionally... no option but to keep plodding...

Thank you 2slicesoftoast (yum username btw). Yes, I do need to be aware that everyone has their own challenges. Slips out my mind even though I rationally know it to be true.

It will all be OK... shall read some funny MN posts to distract bad feelings...