Just seen that ExBFF died 5 years ago. Feel very odd!

[WendyTheWench]

She was my best friend from age 12-22. I moved away and she got a bit shirty when I bought a new boyfriend (now DH) back home for a visit as she wanted me to herself, so we stopped contacting each other.

Last saw her 16 years ago on a visit back to home town when DD bashed her with a trolley in the supermarket, she didn't say anything, just yelped and rushed off which is when I recognised her. Her reaction always made me wonder if she'd recognised me.

I occasionally look up people I haven't seen for ages and a newspaper article came up detailing her very tragic death, at the age of 40, 5 years ago. Her DC were only babies. It was so odd seeing her picture and knowing she was dead.

I'm NC with my family and realistically won't ever be reconciled so this has really crystallised that too.

It's made me feel quite panicky.

Anyone else experienced this?

OP. I had this with someone I knew too, although not best friends. I think it was the finality of the situation and that there wouldn't be an opportunity to make amends. I did feel shaky.

That's so sad. Don't feel bad about grieving for her! She was your BFF at one point, no matter how long ago.

cat x

Thanks Ms. Shaky is the word. Feel like I need to do something but not sure what .

Perhaps light a candle in your house and collect all your thoughts or memories of her. Then wish her peace.

A former colleague of mine died recently but I didn't hear about her death until much later and so i missed her memorial service. I've been thinking about her a lot and saying a few prayers.

Actually the work colleague I got on with really well but there was another person I had a disagreement with a number of years ago and that's who I was referring to in my first post.

Yes it's a strange feeling isn't it! I saw in Facebook a while ago that the lad I was friends with at school and had a huge crush on had died suddenly in his early thirties. Even though there is no relationship there anymore you still grieve.
Maybe do something privately for her, buy some flowers, light a candle and say a prayer. Hugs x

So sorry this blast from the past has cropped up.

It's quite common. However tempting it is, sometimes best not to go looking up people from the past, including family, for this reason.