Hello,
I'm going back to university in three weeks (namechanged for this post, as I've previously said where I go). Last year, I had a miserable year, for various reasons, and on reflection, I think I've realised I was being bullied. I've never felt so uncomfortable in a place, and it culminated in the final week of university, with the boy knocking on my accommodation door, repeatedly. I realise now I shouldn't not have answered it, but I did. It was very threatening, you don't expect someone to be trying to bang the door down at 4am, and the whole room shaking with the effort of him trying to get in.
Anyway, I've not given many details, my post is long enough already, but many things happened which made me feel miserable and uncomfortable. The point of this post isn't that I return to university soon. Over summer, I realised I've been dreading seeing this group of people again out and about. I really don't want to come face to face with them ever again, however it is likely to happen at some stage at the university, or in the town. I don't know how I'm going to react, I don't want to ever feel like I did last year again, I know if I see them that it will bring all the feelings back from last year. I was so weak in front of them, I wasnt myself at all last year, I feel like my whole personality and character was slowly eroded.
over the summer I've become the person I was before going to university. Despite gaining my confidence back, I still don't know what to do, how to react if I see them. I know it will throw me. Does anyone have any advice? Should I ignore them, confront them? I'd be really grateful for any suggestions. Sorry this is so long, didn't expect to write this much.