Does anyone else find themselves zoning out a lot?
I have a child about to start school. What I want is to really engage with them, play with them, enjoy them while they are young, develop a strong relationship with them.
In practice I find myself on my phone or laptop, doing chores elsewhere in the house, putting the TV on.. deliberately ignoring them.
I'm on heavy anti anxiety and anti depression meds, and a single parent, but that means I do get some time to myself in the evening. When I also find myself just zoning out on TV.
I feel like I'm wasting our lives away. Soon the holidays will be over, I will be back at work full time and we will be back in a routine of work/school. It's probably a kind of coping mechanism, I keep telling myself to pay attention, play.. but then end up zoning out for half the day unless they really nag. We do have a good relationship so far and very close, they are a single child too so I know they need attention or might end up feeling quite lonely.