This anxiety, it will be the death of me!!

[CantankerousCamel]

I am having a terrible few days, I’m sorry I don’t know where else to post this.

Things are not going well, the house is failing apart as I am not up keeping anything

All DH’s energy is rightfully going on keeping me from complete melt down and supporting the kids.

We have just bought a caravan and I swear the stress of considering where to go with it this weekend has been just overwhelming. I eventually booked a break in Cornwall. It’s a three hour drive.

When I get back I need to sort the kids room and my room ready for back to school. I need to go back to crossfit and organise my life. I KNOW if I allow things to become unordered, it affects my head so why do I do it?

Please tell me camping will help? That I am not destroying my children’s lives with this terrible illness

You are not destroying your children's lives. Please don't feel that way, they adore you and you adore them. That's why you're seeking help. Your love for them is why you're fighting this.

Camping may help. I can't say for sure but the fresh air, the darkness allowing you to star gaze on clear nights and being away from the surroundings that cause you so much stress with the people you love are all amazing and positive things that you really need right now.

I know the amount of things in front of you is terrifying but take it one chunk at a time. You're going away. Keep the caravan in a good organised state for your trip. Forget about the house. Forget about school. Be in that moment while you're away just for now. The rest can be picked up later. This is what is in front of you.

Anxiety sucks

I'm much the same, should be enjoying life but instead constantly feel bogged down

Have you tried writing a diary OP? Or make a list of everything you need to do? I find it helps to write things down, to release them out of my mind

You're giving your children a lovely break away before they go back to school. Enjoy yourself and try to relax , and enjoy your children as holidays like that are such a great opportunity to break from routine and have fun with them . We had a break down to Hayle in June and it did us al the world of good xxx

Life is hard. Everyone has their own little battles in life. I think the key is to be open about it and not pretend its not an issue or keeping it to yourself.

Relax and enjoy the weekend. Let things go with the flow, nothing too structured so to not heap pressure on yourself. I'm sure the kids will have a great time.

I suffer extreme anxiety and i refer to camping as therapy! It will help

Thanks. I have an extreme case of what I call

Post Conversational Anxiety

And it’s eating me alive today. There are a few signs that I am becoming quite manic which is crappy for all of us as the reality is nothing quite helps. I need to just be organised and together and recognise the need for that in my life.

I believe camping (with a proper king sized bed and bog ;-) ) will really sort me out.

Crazy isn’t it, I just talked a dear friend down from the ceiling because she was stressed about having a few glasses of wine and breastfeeding her baby when she got home (hadn’t expressed more) which is fine. She told me I’m nailing parenting, damn it doesn’t feel like it!!!

I feel like I am making huge mistakes, saying the wrong things, ruining my situation. I have the most incredible, kind and caring DH. I have secure housing and three gorgeous kiddies.

Sometimes I am so happy it is like a dream, I actually look at my life and cannot believe how it can be so perfect. Then this is my penance, I get these crazy attacks of manic anxiety. It’s so hard. It physically hurts my chest.

Weightlifting helps

Driving down to Cornwall now.

Feeling much better but still chemically imbalanced/incredibly fragile but grateful for the space in the car to be honest.

My lovely DH is just getting us some coffee from a petrol station then back on the road to Cornwall.

Thank you to everyone who reached out last night. It was awful but I’m optimistic that things will be easier now

Have a wonderful time x