I’m mid 30s and I just feel so blah about life. I’ve never been particularly ambitious but I’ve had passions, liked people, enjoyed things. Now I don’t care about anything or anyone.
I don’t go out, don't see anyone or do anything. I’m not sure when it started but over the last few years I really started to dislike people which has grown to a general hatred of others. I have an niceish family who live close by and was very close to my sister but I don’t make the effort to see them and I find my sister annoying.
I have a boyfriend of several years but we don’t live together. I’ve stopped caring if he’s here or not and feel quite detached a lot of the time. I have kids but I don’t enjoy their company. I find parenting really difficult. I don’t like my job or my colleagues.
Spare time is spent avidly reading the news/politics which fuels my anxiety. I think people would be surprised to know I feel this way since I hide behind an ‘outgoing’ persona when really I’m a total introvert. I’ve suffered MH problems for a long time. I wouldn’t say I'm happy or unhappy - I feel like I’ve shut down.
Does anyone else feel like this? Is it something I should be worried about?