Hi all not really sure if this is the right place to post this or even where to begin with it. Oh well here goes anyway I’m in a bit of a bad place with my marriage I’m a married 36 year old man with 6 children to my wife of 15 years & partner of 20 yes you read that right we got together at the age of 15 & 16 she’s never really been the loving or affectionate type more of a couldn’t care less type around 12 years ago she started to drink 6+ cans every night which over the years went up to 15+ a night for several years the abuse from her as been nothing other than soul destroying for all involved 3 years ago I’d had enough of how she speaks to me along with the constant put downs she always try’s to get with other men & when I find out she just says people are lying but that’s another story so id had it & told her that it was time to cut bk on the drink as our marriage & family was more than falling apart I by the way do not drink at all what so ever so I stopped getting her as much alcohol as she would normally have so bk down to 6-8 cans from 4pm onwards 5% 365 days a year some days more life’s hell no doubt about it she then started to self harm in ways that really put her life at risk 20+ inch scars all over her body her face throat she’s shaved her hair all off I stayed with her throughout everything even with how I’m feeling she’s stopped self harming she’s on medication & has a counsellor she still drinks & the abuse is worse than ever so aggressive towards me tells our children not to go near me as I may rape them because I look like a child rapist then laughs her head off so many other things go on from her the youngest is now 10 eldest 20 they’ve seen so much I really need to put an end to what’s going on but just can’t seem to make that step forward we both want it to end she wants me to take all the children bar 1 & move out of our home any advice is appreciated both positive & negative thanks for listening