Hello, I’m looking for some advise, I apologise in advance for the long rant.
I have just found out that I am expecting my second child which my husband and I are over the moon about as we have been trying for a little while. I am 5 + 2. We welcomed our 1st Child in 2012 after suffering a miscarriage in 2011. I’m trying to stay positive about this pregnancy however my mind is constantly thinking the worst. I am trying to keep as stress free as possible and focus on the positives but I’m having a really hard time at work. My boss is literally a dragon. Since I went back to work after having me daughter in 2012 she says to me on a weekly basis “you better not be thinking about having another child” and just generally being quite rude and nasty about work. For example she rings me today and I miss the call she then rings my family members so she can speak to me, I call her back and she rants at me for 10 minutes because she doesn’t like something I done on Friday (I was covering for her while she was on her monthly holiday). She could have waited until tomorrow to discuss. I don’t feel ready to tell anyone at work yet about the pregnancy , but the stress of the job is so bad I’m finding it difficult to stay calm. I wake up at night thinking about work I worry all weekend about going back to work on Mondays and I just don’t feel this is good for the baby, which in turn makes me worry about miscarrying again. My boss is the owner of the company so there is literally no one I can talk to about her. My other colleagues feel the same way so I know it’s not just me. I’m just feeling so rubbish at the moment and I can’t leave work as my husband and I are in the process of buying a new house. Any advise would be really appreciated.