A few nights ago i went on my partners laptop as I had been doing for the last week as mine is broken and currently away for repair. I typed in gmail to bring up my email as normal and it bought up a gmail account for him which I didn’t know he had. I saw a load of emails between him and his ex wife. The emails were between 2011 and 2014. We have been together since 2010 and they have been divorced 5 years before that. I read them as anyone would to find that 4 weeks after having our first son he was telling her how much he missed her and forever wished things were different between them. Other mails whilst I was pregnant in 2013 saying how he still had the dreams of them being together and growing old together, walking down the beach hand in hand together, how he couldn’t control himself around her and he knew he shouldn’t be saying all this but couldn’t stop himself. He was saying he had often thought about going over and how he was finding it so hard to stay away. The emails back were kind of the same but not as strong from her. I know this was 2011 to 2014 but I am in bits, I’m heartbroken, feel like Ive been cheated on. I just cant stop crying any words of advice or support would be greatly appreciated. Im literally feeling broken. I have told him I have seen them and he hasnt denied it bexause he cant just said he cant really remember sending them. We are still needing to have a propper sit down chat about it all. Any advice or kind words appreciated x