Quick background. Together on and off 10 years. Together steadily for the last 5 and Married for 1.5 years. We have never had the best relationship. We bicker a lot and my husband has never been very affectionate or showed any sort of emotion. He’s had a toughish childhood so i always Kinda let his selfishness slide but recently things have got really bad. We have been ttc for 9 months and found out in jan that i have Diminished ovarian reserve and hubby has extremely poor sperm so ivf is the only option. Hubby took it badly and refused to talk to me and basically has been really nasty for the past month. He’s told me to leave and find someone else and he’s been pushing me away. He said we have nothing in common and we aren’t happy with each other so it’s best if we call it a day. I was Obviously really upset because although we might not seem like the best couple, I thought we loved each other enough and that’s what made it work. After a lot of crying (on my part) we decided that we would try to make it better. He never talks or opens up about anything and we never have a deep or meaningful conversation. He’s made NO effort at all to make the situation better. He won’t cuddle me, tell me he loves me or even talk to me. We sit in silence on our phones. I guess It’s the same as it’s always been but now I’m realising that i need him. We’ve just found out we potentially won’t be able to have a baby and i need Someone to cry with and to hug and for him to tell me it will be okay. He can’t do that. I’m thinking of all the times he’s let me down or disappointed me and it’s making me think id be better off alone. It wouldn’t be fair to bring a child into this mess anyway. I’ve tried so hard to make this work and he’s refusing to talk or do anything to make it better. I love Him so much and the thought of packing up our home and never seeing each other again kills me but at the same time i cant Imagine living this unhappy for the rest of my life. I’ve suggested councelling and he won’t go. I’m all out of ideas. 