I need your advice pls as I’m driving myself slightly crazy. Quite a few years ago I wa violently assaulted. I was in shock and whilst I contacted the Police and went along for an exam and to be interviewed, I remember feeling, and saying to them, that I didn’t know what to do and if I wanted to have an investigation. The next day (I stayed the night at a safe house) I was driven home to find marked police cars outside my house. I freaked out as the man who had attached me had threatened me if I told anyone. To cut a long story short after a lot of police activity in the area I told them
I didn’t want to continue. I was put under a lot of pressure - you have to, what if he does this to someone else - but I was too scared and to be honest, was not thinking at all straight.
Fast forward to now and in very recent weeks the person who I had always thought was responsible for my attack has been in the news again as he’s being linked to a well-known crime. Seeing his face in the news etc has been a huge challenge for me as it seems to have triggered a lot of thoughts and emotions I had thought I had out to bed. It got me thinking about my case as I read in some of the reports this man was thought to have been responsible for numerous other attacks so I got in touch with the senior police officer who was responsible for putting him behind bars for another crime. He is now looking in to whether or not my case was linked and if they still have the evidence collected. I have asked him to do this but I don’t know why. Part of me wants to find out for sure id it was him and if so have him held accountable but part of me wants to try and forget it all and what’s the point in bringing it all back up again.
What would you do? In the meantime I’m not sleeping well, having nightmares, flashbacks and swinging between trying to keep so busy to keep distracted and wanting to run away. Should I just try and put it all behind me?
Sorry for long post.