Hi this is my first time starting a thread. I feel lost, numb and very depressed. I'm 4 months pregnant and have a two year old with my bf and he has tried kicking me out of our place. He has become very aggressive and is mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. We have decided it is best we go our separate ways but living with him while figuring out where to go and save money has become more difficult and impossible. I fear for my life and my unborn child. He won't hurt our two year old or has touched me anywhere around my stomach but has shoved me and knocking me over and that can lead to accidentally hurting the baby, as well as dealing with the stress and anxiety. I called the cops on him for the first time yesterday for becoming verbally aggressive and threating to rip my clothes and break my personal belongings. He locked me out of the house but I had my keys with me and stayed outside. I just didn't want to argue in front of my two year old and knew it would get physical. They had him leave but I got no sleep thinking he would come back and do something for calling the cops. Im overwhelmed and I'm trying to focus on my health and my two year old and show no sadness but I really just want to breakdown and cry. All I really wanted was a loving family but he has problems of his own he needs to resolve and I can't help him any longer after trying for three to four years. He's now drinking and smoking weed from the moment he wakes up to the moment he sleeps and I can't solve that issue for him unless he wants the help himself. I'm just feel so alone and scared to have this child on my own and all I keep thinking about is who's going to be with me in the dilvery room and it's the stupidest thought but I'm afraid. I just need advice from anyone who's gone through the same or similar situation as I'm going through and how can I go on and stay strong through all this?