Hello. I don't know where to start. I'm 24 years old. I think my mum hates me but I know she loves me. If I died I know she'd cry and be sad, but why is she trying to make me think that she hates me? She calls me a slut, a whore, tells me she wishes I was never her daughter. I'm really sad. I cry when talks to me, and she says why are you crying again? I cry because I'm sad, I'm sad because I felt you never loved me, I'm sad because you won't acknowledge my sadness. I'm now an adult but inside I'm a child craving my mother's love, affection. But at this point I feel like even if she tried to show me that I wouldn't accept it, why do I feel like that? I crave acceptance on a day to day basis from anyone and everyone. My mother always tells me she wishes I was someone different, more like her friends' daughters. I love my mother, I would die for her. The slut shaming started when I told her that I was touched inappropriately by male family members and male family friends at the age of 6 til I was 10. She told me it was my fault, and at 15 when I told her this I thought maybe it was my fault. I think my mother is sad about how her life has panned out and her only is escape is to take it out on me, so I understand. But it still hurts. I don't know what to do, I'm just really sad.