Really struggling with eating

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I have a sort of compulsion to overeat that I cannot overcome and it's getting me down in a big way now

I haven't been intimate with my husband for so long now it's embarrassing to even discuss it with him

I loathe myself physically but I just cannot stop

I've always been 10-12 and now I'm a big 14 and counting. I'm five foot four and probably pushing 11 and a half stone now.

I know that's not huge but the impact it's having certainly is, and it's not slowing down

I don't eat any crap, just far far too much. I'm addicted to eating until I'm almost uncomfortably full

I'm terrified I'm going to end up enormous but no matter how many times I say that's enough, it's just carrying on

I cook super healthy lunches and take them to work every day, scratch cook good food every night, and then have more treats at the weekend. I also drink too often which is not helpful.

Has anyone ever found a way to break the cycle of overeating?

I'm feeling really desperate and can't see a way forward

Sounds obvious but have you tried cutting out carbs? The blood sugar diet is a good one to follow - you can still eat a lot as long as it's the right sort of food.

I am the same height as you and until about 18 months ago I was 11 stone 9 - my daughter was nearly two before I decided to do something about it. Until then I just didn't care enough - I was just eating out of habit and because it seemed such a lot to lose to get back to where I was I couldn't see the point in starting. But I found even losing the first couple of pounds motivated me to keep going. I am a bit obsessive about what I eat now though. Cutting carbs made a huge difference. I've given up alcohol now to try and cure my ibs and I've not lost any weight due to that, I think unless you're drinking loads it doesn't make a huge difference (well it didn't for me anyway.)

Thanks for your reply. I don't know how to feel full enough without some carbs (I avoid wheat)

Can you give me a rough idea of what you eat?

And just to clarify- it's the volume of what I eat and feel I need to eat now to feel full, that's the main issue.

But open to cutting things too if it could help

Just don't know how to curb my appetite

I joined the gym to make up for me loving food too much. I went from a size 14 to a 10. I eat quite a lot but eat healthy ( occasionally I pig out on cake and take away ).

Sympathies op, I've had my own food struggles. I try to eat lots of veg (not potatoes) and protein such as egg, meat, cheese, pulses.

Thanks for the replies!

I think I was hoping that if I at least ate well it would matter less how much I ate, but that doesn't seem to be working