I'm early twenties and this year has been absolute hell for me. In January I found out I was pregnant despite taking the pill, my boyfriend and I decided we'd terminate as we're both living at home and it was unplanned. I was really sick with the pregnancy, I hid it from work but was running to the bathroom 8/9 times a day. I had a lot of time off as I told them it was a sickness bug.
I had my termination, it absolutely broke my heart and I couldn't walk through the hospital without feeling I was going to faint. Afterwards, I collapsed from bleeding at work, the bathroom was soaked with blood (at this point I end up admitting I had had a termination to colleagues and HR) and I went back and forth to A&E for them to send me away. A few weeks later, I began to pour with blood in Sainsbury's, it was horrendous and everyone saw. My boyfriend then drove me to A&E and would not go till I was seen to. Turns out they hadn't removed the foetus, I had a severe infection and was booked in for emergency surgery the next morning. This led to more time off and by this point work had began to performance manage me as my work was suffering. I was sacked from my well paid role. I've been applying for roles for 3 months and so far found nothing. I've suffered for years with anxiety but even upping my dose of citolapram isn't helping.
I'm arguing with my parents, they want me out. I had a little amount of savings but have bad credit, I've paid them £400 a month since I was 18, never ever missed a payment. I've just heard my dad say "just tell her to get out our house then" My boyfriend lives at home too, although he doesn't earn a lot and gives a lot to his daughters mum. Being at home is unbearable, I can't rent as I have no income/savings now, I'd be low priority with the council and I can't stay with my boyfriend for too long!
I just feel like ending it all, I know there's worse problems than this but I am seriously struggling. My mind is blank, what do I do?