Help...please. Any advice seriously appreciated as in a real state of quandary/anxiety and getting in quite a state about decision making...
I had my first baby nearly 4 yrs ago and it has taken a long time to feel ready to embrace pregnancy and the whole birth thing again as it was horrifically traumatic - high blood pressure, induction, serious emergency C-section, very nearly lost baby at birth, nasty post op infection that took 2-3 months to heal and depression....but so hoping all different this time around.....
Currently 38 weeks pregnant and I was (up until 48 hrs ago) very positive about going for VBACs as it was great ambition to do it all naturally first time and have minimal medical interventions, although under care of consultant and was offered C-section as elective procedure. The main reason for deciding against an elective caesarian was that I don't want to deny this baby a single day of the benefits of being in utero for as long as possible, as nature intended by being the one to decide when... I would love it to arrive when nature intended.
This time pregnancy has been pretty straight forward, blood pressure fine, oedema nothing like before however even though I am running around after a 3.5 yr old morning and evening, I am otherwise sat at a computer working hard so not as fit as I was first time.
2 days ago, I was not happy about how much foetal movement I had felt overnight and Friday morning so went to Triage and was monitored, scanned and thank goodness everything fine and now movements back to normal. Hospital could not explain foetal lack of movement but all the boxes were ticked and clearly all fine as back to normal now.
However during scan it was commented on as to what a big baby it is...the head circumference measurement is well up from the upper percentile, as is the abdominal measurement and they estimated baby to be approx. 8.6 lbs at present. My first baby was 8.1 lbs.
Our WONDERFUL NHS being as clearly stretched as it is (it was packed with women in labour in triage and phone non stop and clearly all staff trying to be as calm as possible but far too busy - and not enough staff/space/rooms/resources) is what worries me the most with leaving the plan to try for VBAC....The genuine terror of there being not enough staff/resources/space/surgery time to monitor and do a C sec if required at the time.......
Please advise on what you wonderful wise women would do?
Would you go for it with the VBACs? VBACs success rate being what it is, knowing that then we could be home asap as a family and with no risk of the post op infection from before?
Would you go back to square one and request an elective caesarean? - I would, I think feel I had 'wimped' out of trying and feel guilty.... however I now realise that guilt is everywhere and unavoidable in every direction of motherhood!
So grateful in advance.......please be honest. I would love to read/ know about anyone who has 'ruptured' with a VBACs - as I do have adhesions from before.....but consultant and brilliant midwives alike reassure me it is SO unlikely....I would love to hear from someone who has had a rupture/knows of someone who had a rupture.... and if they and baby are alright in the end.