This seemed the most apt place to post this... I find decision making very difficult in the best of circumstances and my current pregnant state is not helping....! Decisions relating to my 3 year child are the hardest too.
People say 'just go with your gut' but I honestly don't have one on many things! I have been stressing for the past week about one decision which feels huge to me: whether to move my 3 year old from their current nursery where they go when I work part-time to a Welsh medium school nursery where. This would mean short term inconvenience and slightly less time with my child for me in the short term (which makes me emotional and guilty!) but would hopefully be an opportunity for my child to begin to learn a new language, even though as (non-Welsh speaking) parents we are far from convinced that we will choose Welsh medium for reception onwards. We have essentially the chance to trial Welsh medium but at a convenience cost to us (as taking the place will mean changing work hours slightly etc). We could just wait and apply for the a place at the same Welsh medium setting from September but we may or may not get a place then, so it feels like a gamble to wait as if we don't get a place later we won't get the chance to try Welsh medium at all.
I have many reservations about Welsh medium which include 'will my child do less well because their parents don't speak Welsh?', 'will I feel less connected to my child and their education because they speak and are educated in a language that I don't?', 'will it turn them into a Welsh nationalist and Welsh language hardliner?' (I am Welsh and proud but do not buy into the nationalism of some of my fellow Welsh people!), 'will Welsh actually be any use to my child in future?'.
And other dilemmas: would it be best to change their nursery setting a few months after the new baby arrives (i.e. Septemebr) rather than a couple few months before (i.e. now)? If we don't send him to Welsh medium will I / they regret it in future? Will they be disavantaged very much in terms of jobs in future?
I am going back and forth and just cannot decide! I've had sleepkess nights for the past week and am driving my partner insane. It's been all we've talked about for days now.
How do you find a gut feeling? Do you always have one regardless of the dilemma? How do you make peace with making a decision when neither option seems ideal? I am emotionally drained and need to make this decision and move forward, and also save myself from future stresses like this in future.