Really need advice. Just had a txt from my cousin to give me the 'sad' news that my Uncle died today. Far from being sad, this is a day I have fantasised about for the last 40 years because my uncle sexually abused me between the ages of 5 and 8. Sadly, and what hurts me even more, is that he outlived my mum, dad and sister. My late sister said when we lost our dad 3 years ago and I ranted to her about how unfair it was that Uncle paedo was still alive, that the fucker was hanging on by his fingernails as he knew what was waiting for him on the other side. A year later I lost her too. Paedo managed to make it to 99!
I feel such a mix of emotions that I just have to write it down. I just want to be able to talk to my sister about it and ask her what I should do. None of the rest of the family know what he did and now I don't know how to react or what to say. The cousin who texted has said he will let me know the arrangements but obviously I'm not going to go to the bloody funeral! This cousin is really close to paedo's sons (more cousins) and his own father was really good friends with paedo and has no clue.
What the hell would you do?