I don't know if this is the right place for this but I'm desperate, basically just over a year and a half ago I lost my son Olly, I gave birth at home alone 2 days from being 24 weeks pregnant, he was born alive but it was 12.10am on new years night so by the time the ambulance came and we got Olly to hospital there was nothing they could do to save him. After a year of paying off my baby boys funeral I am now financially at breaking point, I got diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder following what happened and I am getting increasingly depressed over not being able to effort my sons headstone, its the only thing I can give to him and I can't. Ive started reducing my medication for the PTSD so I can go back to work but this us proving harder than I thought it would be, I've no friends and my family can't help me with the costs, I've sold everything I possibly can sell, I've applied for loans left right and center which has messed everything up more -company's taking money from me to search for loans on my behalf -which wouldn't be so bad if I actually got a loan. I have created fundraising accounts on go get funded and go fund me but to no avail ,I have asked for social loans and grants but there's nothing they can do, I'm at breaking point with it all, I just wanted to post here to see if anyone has any suggestions on what I could do, if there's anything I've missed that I could try?
Sorry for the long post and thank you in advance xx