Hi all!
I've been on here looking for advice in the past, I'm in a mess!
In October last year i found a lot of msgs and weird numbers on my oh phone... I realised soon enuf that it was numbers for escorts off the website adult work?? Wen he came home from work I was literally on the floor in pieces.. He was shocked I had seen the lot. Think he deletes his phone a lot and was prob gutted the day he leaves it at home he forgets to delete! Anyway we spent all day trying to sort this mess out, he swore on our daughters life he hadn't been anywhere near them it was just the fantasy he liked, but he'd called them to arrange it and txt them to see if they were available, I gave him another chance. It's not been easy.
We have been together 3yrs we have 2 children but he's only my dd real dad, who's 18 months old. I have put on weight since having dd, but he says that ain't an issue and I did believe him.
I have been treated bad in past relationships and I did actually trust him, and wanted to again since this..
We talked about fulfilling some of our fantasies and after what happened our sex life was better than ever, then it stopped and now it's none existent again. I know he's masturbating a lot as I do the washing and I can see for myself, I'm not proud of it :( he tells me he loves and he still wants us to be a family but last night I was alone with his phone in bed, I looked at the history and seen he had been looking at adult work again and watching webcams..my whole worlds fell apart again I feel like I can't breath, he knows there's something wrong with me but if I tell him what I've seen I think that'll be the end of us As there's no excuses this time.. Is it an addiction? Is there anything I can ask him to do? I'm gonna lose a lot if I leave him I just need some advice, I can't tell my family or friends he's done it again they'll not forgive him twice..please can any1 advise me what to do?
Thx x