hi all, im so mixed up at the moment and really dont know what to do.18 months ago i had a double masectomy and 5 months of chemo because of breast cancer. towards the end of my chemo i found out that my then, partner was having an affair. to cut a long story short, we managed to sort it between us, were a lot closer and went ahead with our planned marriage in jan of this year.(we have been together for nearly 7 years).everything was great, we talked, never argued and told each other every day that we loved each other. then a few months ago, he started going out, not very often but when he did, there was never no real explaination about where he had been and i know he was lying. something he is not very good at.i did ignore it at first, im on depressants because of my cancer and sometimes feel paranoid so thought it was all in my head.things have got worse though, i tried talking to him about it, telling him what i thought but he just walked away,
he always text me saying where he was, what time he would be back ect, but that all of a sudden stopped, if i tried phoning or texting him, he would ignore it, then everything blew up last week when he came in around 10.30 after a bike meeting with his friends that finished at 7.30 and was only an hour away.he said he cant be with me any more because i dont trust him, and why should he have to explain where he has been and what time he is going to be home all the time. he said he doesnt love me, but we only booked a holiday a few weeks before, put a big deposit on a new car too.??? he is insisting there is no one else this time and its all in my head !!
we have a guest house together so he wanted to live seperate lives but still live in the same house and work together because he cant afford to move out. after a while i agreed to this then thought, hang on, he is getting everything his way, i,m devistated about splitting up and love him so much but i explained i cant bere to be working with him, living in the same building with him and him going out, and staying out with another women at some point, which is what is going to happen. the thought of it tears me apart. so again, thing blew up in the air and i said alot of things i shouldnt of done but hoped to hurt him like he is hurting me. i told him i wanted him out and that i would take him to court because of the first affair and mess his life up like he has messed mine up.that i'm not giving the business up and uprooting my daughter from her home and school. he is looking at flats tomorrow ans speaking to a solicitor mid week. i feel like everything is crashing down around me. 