Sorry if this is the wrong place and a bit all over the place But I am stumped!
I have a 7month old dd and I've been unsuccessfully looking for work for the past 3 years since leaving uni. I have had a few temp contracts but nothing permanent.
I apply for 50-60 jobs a month maybe more when I get some time. I have trailed the internet, newspapers and walked for hours handing CV everywhere. Before dd was born I volunteered. In these past 3 years I have only heard back from 4 companies who offered me temporary contracts (1 each in admin, customer service, retail and bar work). I am not focusing on one industry I will gladly take any job as long as it's a steady wage.
I had a job interview yesterday and now I am worried that I'm going to have to turn the job down if I am successful. I will be earning £199 a week before tax.
However childcare is £150 a week (childminder) or £210 a week (nursery) plus £50 a week travel (which includes travel to and from childminder/nursery). So obviously I would be out of pocket just by working.
At the moment I am a SAHM but it is not for me at all. My oh works crazy shifts sometimes coming home just to sleep. I have no family at all and his parents are in their 70s with numerous health problems. They have said they will help with childcare but I feel like a burden on them. They cannot pick her up off the floor, they cannot carry her for more than 5 minutes, they cannot lift the pram when folded into their car and after 3 hours of looking after her (they minded her when went for the interview) they were exhausted.
At the moment we are skint, and I mean we are lucky to have £5 at the end of the month. I am not "entitled" (hate that word) to SMP/MA as didn't earn enough, nor JSA as partner earns literally £2.50 or so too much a year.
We get no tax credits as I don't work so no need to pay for childcare at the moment.
I want to work, I NEED to work, but unless I am on £250+ a week (very unlikely in my area) we would be worse off.
What can I do? I'm stuck in a rut!