When I watch the news about all of that child abuse by celebrities dating back years ago I feel discomfort. I was being sexually assulted at school by the boy in my class from age 8 till 15. He used to grab grope me and so on. He used to do it to.other girls in my class too. I remember someone telling me his behaviour is due to his dad watching porn with him. If its TRUE I think his dad was some kind of psychopath.anyway the thing is I know it was wrong I spoke to teacher about it but nothing happened so I just got used to it. Now years later I think that this had a major impact on my self esteem as whenever I feel that someone could fancy me I shut down and make myself look unattractive. I also.noticed that I tend to.put on weight so noone finds me attractive i think that child trauma stuck with me and I don't know if im.just being silly as it was years ago ?