Ten years ago today, my lovely Mum died.

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My wonderful mum died of a brain tumour on Jan 4th 2004. She was a truly lovely person. I was 36 weeks pregnant. She was 54 years old.

I have mainly been crying, drinking cups of tea, cuddling my children, and writing this:

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I wish I could see her, just to tell her about the past ten years, and give her the hugest hug. I miss her.

It's very hard on the anniversary of your loss - losing your Mum is something you can never be prepared for, but I imagine at 36 weeks pregnant it would have made it so much harder for you. I lost my Mum 18 years ago this February, she sadly never got to see any of her grandchildren, but I take great comfort in knowing how proud she would be of them. Your Mum would also be proud of you & your children too - remember that they are are also part of her. It does get slightly easier as the years pass by, but I still have a sit down & cry for the loss of my Mum, and wish she was here to give me advice & hugs. I know it's cheesy, but be thankful that you had the time that you did with your wonderful Mum and enjoy looking for bits of her in your children - she lives on in them.