I worked on a contract basis from September to April this year. My boss then told me of a job coming up as someone had handed their notice in. I said I was definitely interested and she said she was very keen to give me the job, but obviously it had to be advertised etc. She went very quiet and didn?t reply to texts or emails, but did send me the person spec for the job, not saying when or where it was to be advertised. I think I missed the ad and it has now closed. I receive weekly emails from the site where I think it was advertised but suspect it may have gone into another category ? although I think that would have been a mistake possibly on the part of HR. I have also been checking the jobs section of the company website on a very regular basis and hadn?t seen this job. I am, obviously, pissed off that I missed the chance to apply but accept there?s nothing to be done about that. I am more concerned now that I have messed up my relationship with my ex-boss and she won?t be inclined to give me any more work. Should I email her and explain that I missed the ad and didn?t just change my mind about working with her or will that just make me look even more useless if I can?t even find an ad for a job??