Lost my purpose

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Mmmm..not sure if this is in the right topic but here goes..

Im almost 40, I have 3 kids twin boys aged 13, and a toddler aged 2.5

I work supposedly 3 mornings cold calling for my dad which I am not enjoying at all

My husband works very hard and every minute he has is spent doing up our house which we have been in for will be 2yrs this July.

I just feel bored, and I also feel like I dont suffer fools so easily anymore - and cant be bothered with friends that do not treat me well

Just feel really lost and not sure who I am..

Its hard to know if this boredom is just a temporary thing - which it well might be or if there is something that needs to change. Maybe putting some time aside for something you like - I don't know I go to art classes - might change your routine and make you feel more on control. I felt like you did about being irritable with people about a year or so ago but it did pass. Also I blamed myself but now realise that it was because I worked with some pretty irritating people.

Can you focus on one thing at a time and change that? I say that because I think that sometimes one grotty thing in your life can colour the rest.

If I were you I'd start with the job (as that sounded like the worst thing). Tell your Dad you hate it. Does he have anything different you can do? If not, maybe look for a different job outside of family you will enjoy more.

If you can get to enjoying a job, then take one of the other things and see if it is still bothering you.

By doing one thing at a time, it seems less overwhelming. But my guess is that you sort out the thing bothering you most and the rest will seem much better.

I am a speaker but I have been leaving in London for the last 20 years - married with 2 children 12 and 7. I also teach part time (3 days a week but not french). I have a great hobbie I love baking and decorating cake and trained for 2 years a few years ago. I do regularly bake and decorate cake for my friends. I am planning to have a 3 hours workshop for baking cupcake and learning french at the same time in my studio. This is the first time and my husband does not believe it is a good idea. I believe learning by doing it very good for school age children. It will be an easy way to be enthousiastic about a new language. What do you think?