I hope you’re doing better too! X
Both, there is a misconception that these places are filled with “lunatics”, “scary people” but really, 90% of them are “normal” women who have experienced trauma that their brain just doesn’t know how to process. Some since childhood (like me), some since adulthood.
3 of the women that I was in there with, I still chat to now, we have a WhatsApp group chat and meet for lunch once a year/chat a couple of times a month on the WhatsApp.
Yes, some were suffering with psychosis and other awful MH illnesses, this did make me feel vulnerable I guess as they could be unpredictable.
One lady was convinced that her spiritual boyfriend was in my room having an affair with me, she’d get out of bed and bang on my bedroom door at all hours, threaten to hurt me etc. by morning she’d smile at me at breakfast and ask how I slept and be a completely different person because she’d be taken away and injected and she wouldn’t remember accusing me of this. I felt nothing but sorry for her, I wasn’t scared of her, I just saw how awful MH illness can be.
The place saved my life ultimately, but I wouldn’t ever like to step foot in one again.