I once attempted suicide AMA

[Coma2017]

Name change for this just incase. I always struggled with my mental health and severely self harmed from ages 12 - 25. I took an overdose in 2017 which put me into a coma. My GCS (Glasgow coma score) was 3 and I wasn't expected to wake up at all, and if I did they suspected brain damage. When I woke up I had lost the abilty to speak or walk properly and lost a lot of weight and muscle mass. It took me years to get back to any sense of "normal". I can walk and talk normally again. AMA.

I was 24. I cannot get life insurance, I have suicide on my medical record so 99% of company's won't touch me. There is 1 or 2 policy available to me but the premium is ridiculous. Which I understand, but still sucks x
Sorry edit to add that I can get travel insurance it's just 3x the price of my OH for example.

I'm so sorry you went through this, especially how she never contacted you over anyone else. That's heartbreaking to read.
I personally could never do anything remotely like that now I have children, I won't even have a sip of alcohol because I know what I'm capable of, I know how slippery a slope it can be and how I have been in the past. I recently re referred myself for some top up therapy just because I was feeling stressed with home life, 2YO and 10 week old will do that to you. But i wanted to make sure I had someone to talk to and to keep myself mentally okay for myself and my family. It doesn't even cross my mind to harm myself in any way anymore.

But, everyone is different, and maybe your mam had demons she couldn't fight, even for you 💔 even as someone who has attempted suicide, I still can't help but be utterly shocked that mothers do it. Now I have my own DC that thought is soo far from my mind. I could never. I strive to do anything and everything to ensure their safety and happiness.

I can only apologise for you. I'm not surprised you blamed yourself but you should know it definitely wasn't about you. You're right to feel angry and betrayed though, totally normal in your circumstances. I'm just truly sorry. You sound like an amazing mam yourself 🫶

Yes I'm.fine happly married 4
5 children later my mum's is still nasty to me My.mh is OK.i.worry for my hubby and 17 yr.old.son.asd and depression hubby

No, not angry. I've never been angry with my friend. Given their description of events, I'm not sure how much 'choice' they actually made in the matter, if that makes sense? I was just interested in your input on a couple of things, as another survivor. See if the experience is really the same for people in that space. I'm disappointed she didn't call me. It was a few years ago now.