Hi, I was diagnosed HIV Pos when I was 4 months pregnant with my youngest whos now 17, I also have an older child both live with me.When I was diagnosed my CD4 count was only 55 and I was told I most of had it for over 10 years without knowing, my viral load thankfully wasn't that high as I had 12,000 copies. my now ex stood by me(and I later found out it was my old boyfriend before I met my childrens father), My childrens father tested negative thankfully..we split 3 years ago. Also Thank god neither of my children have this(as my eldest was tested when small, and my youngest also had a couple of tests..last one when he turned 18 months old. I kept it to myself all these years, as I was fearful of others reactions and because of the stigma. swore I'd never tell my children as I was worried they would be scared or look at me differently. well last night I had a few drinks and finally told them. they both surprised me and were very supportive. I explained that they were both negative and I was undetectable and that there is no risk to them. that they couldn't catch it from my cooking or sharing the same cups etc. my eldest was more concerned about my health and asked me to take better care of myself. and they both told me they loved me no matter what. all these years I've fretted about them finding out, I always tore off my labels of my medication and would hide them in case one of them found them and googled what they were for. I'd lie why I went up the hospital and say it was for a scan or to check my liver and kidneys..which in a way is partly true as they do check liver and kidney function. Looking back I wonder if I should of told them sooner? or perhaps last night was finally the right time for me. I did wake in the night with some dread, but remembering how supportive and loving they both were to me has made me realize it was the right thing to do..no more secrets..no more hiding..and no more shame. I'm still me.