Hey @HelloMiss &@Bellybootcut
sorry for the delay. Didn’t get notifications as I’m a dufus and didn’t switch the option on!
he doesn’t accept the diagnosis. Thinks we are all ‘obsessed with mental health’ and that ‘they’/we are purposely trying to keep him locked up so he can’t go out and do ‘good in the world and cure all the people’.
his psychosis consists generally of the following as standard (only touched on it as there are so many things he does)- so week to week;
DELUSIONS
so fixed false beliefs. too many to list.
Thinks we are all connected neurologically and that others are trying to input beliefs or delete/wipe and reset his brain. Believes he can tell what I’m ’really’ thinking over the phone as he’s connected to my subconscious.
DISORDERED THINKING
Grabbed this as it sums things up nicely. - https://www.verywellhealth.com/different-types-of-psychosis-5095671#:~:text=Psychosis%20can%20include%20hallucinations%2C%20delusions,substance%20use%20and%20sleep%20deprivation.
Disordered thinking that’s severe enough to impair a person’s ability to communicate effectively is another symptom of psychosis. Examples of disordered thinking include fast, racing thoughts, derailment, perseveration (uncontrollable repetitive thoughts), illogicality (belief and thoughts that are not based on logic or reason), and tangentiality (jumping from one topic to another without any apparent connection).
so to us that can be him going off on monologues but he seems to run out of steam and stumble over words and starts making them up. His rambles never really get to a point or reach a conclusion. There is a fancy name for it but menopause likes to delete the pretty words when I most need them. He mainly has Illogicality issues - but also tangentially. The other two present when he’s at rock bottom (perseveration, derailment).
HALLUCINATIONS
these aren’t always obvious as he hides/denys/masks etc
I don’t think he sees people but he does have auditory hallucinations where people either talk in his head to him or ‘send him messages’ in his head. This is mainly Vladimir Putin who thinks he’s a double agent.
he has physical hallucinations where he thinks all the food on the hospital is rotten. He’s thrown away all my fresh fruit previously as it’s was rotten etc (it wasn’t). Eaten raw onion as he thinks it tastes ok - as in eating like an apple.
he can sometimes see and hear the electric in the walls.
everyone in the hospital is out to get him.
he’s been hacked by literally everyone. Lasted is someone on the ward has apparently hacked his banking app so we can’t access it. Not him having faffed with it so that the bank locked it for a security measure..
I alternate from the good guy to the bad one.
I sold him to peadophile rings (PR). Took him to the circus to see a hypnotist to make him pliable to the PR. He makes accusations that others in my family - my brother etc are abusing their children and he can tell as they send him neural messages. To my knowledge my son was never abused. But could I say 💯 that away with cubs or on sleepovers etc something did/didn’t happen - I can’t. But I do doubt anything and his claims/age/story etc change all the time - they often marry up with things happening in mainstream media.
Sometimes thinks he’s Banksy and rings me with other patients who he’s tried to convince that they are my long lost son. So basically Banksy rings me every other month with some poor soul.
At his worse when he’s deep in psychosis he can be walking along and pause mid stride. Even with a foot of the ground. The voices are talking to him. To hard to ignore and mask. It’s like someone hit a pause button. Then within a few seconds he’s back in the room like it didn’t happen.
We can’t always talk in rooms with the panelled ceilings as they absorb your thoughts and energy into the ceiling. They turn it into bad energy and miasma and it hovers at the ward doors so you have to hold your breath as you walk through them.
Just so much. So many things. Some change over the years. Some go away replaced with new beliefs etc.