Do you think CBT just doesn't work on some people?
I've had it twice (once for anxiety and once for depression) and it just didn't work. I really tried to engage, did all the homework, did extra reading etc. but to me it felt like I was being told to "think happy thoughts" - not putting down what you guys do. I am referring literally to the idea of changing my thoughts.
I am well aware of cognitive distortions and very aware that my thoughts are irrational. But I was never able to actually change them in a way that changed my mood.
For example if I text someone and they don't get me back, I can easily identify my thoughts of "I bet they don't like me. I wonder if I've done something to upset them". And no matter how I try to spot that thought and try to change it and replace is with "Maybe they are busy" or whatever, I simply don't believe it.
I believe that they're angry at me. Even though it might not be rational. It's not likely but it's not impossible. And every bit of me believes it's true. Even after weeks of practising it.
All the "rational" thoughts I try to replace with are just basically lies to me. It's like thinking "I have blonde hair" and I don't. It doesn't make me think it's true. I am just saying something I don't believe in my head.
I'm asking this because I have a couple of things going on currently which I have not sought help for as I know I will be given CBT again. Is it possible that I'm just not understanding or doing it right or does CBT just not work on some peoples brains?