Funnily enough, I came out of a horrible relationship after a horrible marriage and realised once the latter was gone, I didn't want it. A chest infection helped.
I was self medicating I guess... avoiding the fact that he just wasn't a nice man.
The drinking ramped you through covid restrictions as my marriage had just ended.
I was in turmoil and so were my kids.
Again, self medicating.
Realised I had an issue after I got rid of bf and wanted to drive to local bottle shop for another bottle, after a bottle of wine.
I've always liked a drink so I'm going to say for about six years, my drinking ramped up as I was deeply lonely and unhappy and the wine was my way of getting a temporary high and then passing out.
I also sent many message to people I would never dream of
Messaging and found myself checking Phone first thing in the morning to see who I had text and what I had said. Never nasty
Or anything , just embarrassing. Defences went completely down.
My health is fine. I never really
Looked hungover and never got hangovers .
I got a chest infection before Christmas, couldn't drink so just stopped altogther except for a Friday or Saturday night since .