Back in the late 80s early 90s when I was only 16/17 I was with a friend out drinking on a Friday night down the park as we were underage to go to nightclubs. When we banged into three slightly older guys maybe 18 /19/20.When they ask us if we would like to come to one of their houses as it was getting cold ,at first we hesitated but as you do one of the boys is very cute so we went along. After a little while the guy I thought was cute more or less talked me into the bedroom. I was a bit hesitant
but also happy that someone this attractive finds me attractive I went into the bedroom you could say consenting to have sex with this guy after a period of time in the bedroom not sure if I enjoyed it or not this guy told me he has to go to the bathroom when I was lying there the door open which I thought was him coming back in, but something wasn’t the same after a period of time nothing was said we had sex again but It felt different again he got up to go to the toilet I just thought was a bit unusual and again after a period of time the door open and put I thought was him coming back again this time I knew there was something really different I just didn’t feel right didn’t feel so I got up ask him to stop got up from the bed put light on to realise that this person that was on top of me was one of the other guys I definitely did not I wouldn’t have agreed to have sex with and in hindsight when I went out to ask I realised that the first guy had tagged his friends to come in and have been coming in one after another
without my knowledge and had sex with me. I went away and on my way I called the police to report rape because I felt so embarrassed so used. I felt disgusted when the police came I gave them a statement explaining that I believed I had been raped. The police more or less blamed me. police have spoken to these guys but then come back and proceeded to make me feel like it was my fault and was willing and I can assure you there is no way I would’ve. What’s really sad is since that night I felt so disgusting I slid into drugs my life just saying was never in the same spent many years trying to get myselfBack to some normality but it’s hard when you see the guys who done this have all went on a local driving jobs driving for local authorities working for fire departments in the British Army these guys went on to create careers and have a great life great family life while they destroyed my family life and any future for my life I feel cheated out of 30 years while these guys create new families break up other families just get on with your life it’s really sad.
was I raped?.??