TW I was sexually assaulted at 14 and had a concealed pregnancy AMA

[Imfinallyhappy1]

I’ve got a point in my life where I can’t talk about what happened, I’m finally happy nearly 2 decades later

AMA

Who was your abuser?

A stranger, I’d never met him apart from that night

I'm sorry for what you went through Can I ask, what helped you be happy now?

What is a concealed pregnancy? Did you keep the baby?

My husband. I self harmed, failed suicide, hated my life. Then I met him and he helped me, loved me, guided me. We have 2 amazing children who are my everything.

When I’m starting to slip back to depression he will be there to catch me.

When did you realise you were pregnant and did you have any support?

Glad to hear you are happy now.

I didn’t tell anyone what happened, I was scared and shamed, a lot of the time is black and I’ll have flash backs. I gave birth alone in my room after my mum found me and I was taken to hospital. I told them I didn’t want him and he was adopted.

I can’t explain what happened in my head, sometimes I would know I was pregnant and other times I didn’t.

It’s very much a blur, I didn’t show at all.

I didn’t have any support

I'm so sorry this happened to you. Did you tell anyone what had happened at the time. Is there anything you wish you had done differently or think that the adults around you could have done differently x

Thank you for your kind words. I told one girl but it was very strange and I think she thought I was talking rubbish. I self harmed a lot during the pregnancy (luckily he was fine when he was born). Knowing what I know now I wish I’d handled everything differently. I think my parents should of known But we’ve all forgiven each other now and we were never close when I was younger.