My mum got me hooked on drugs

[lola212121]

As the title says

How old were you when she first gave you drugs?

How did that happen, OP?

what kind of drugs?

@Madgemac I was 12 when she gave me my first spliff

@hungryhippie speed and cannabis

@HollowTalk she would give me drugs whilst with her mates .. I would eventually sneak pills and speed and instead of cigarettes I would smoke weed everyday from age 12 alone or with mum

Gosh Lola, that's shocking. Why did she do it? What was your relationship with her like? What is it like now? Are you off drugs now? Sorry for all the questions.

Is your mum still around?
Do you still take drugs?

That's really shocking. If nothing else I would have assumed a drug taker's absolute selfishness would have prevented them from sharing with anyone who couldn't reciprocate.

Do you still see your mum? Do you have a family of your own now?

@TiredPony I don't know why . She was always stoned and high ... maybe she didn't know what she was doing ... she also has a personality disorder and had always blamed her downward spiral on a bad divorce and her gran had died which had affected her apparently .

@hungryhippie yes she is still alive at nearly 60 and I don't talk to her up until recently actually ... we were chatting on the phone but haven't seen her in 2 years , she's dependent on prescription drugs and barely goes out of her house and lives 70 miles ish away

@hungryhippie I dont take drugs , I stopped use after I found out I was pregnant with my first son nearly 12 years ago .
I also don't smoke or drink alcohol .

lola have you ever had councilling? Do you still take drugs ?

@HollowTalk I have children but I don't feel I have a family .

Crossed post !

Good for you lola

@Whattheactualfuckmate no I haven't had counselling . I have done an introduction to counselling course though

@Whattheactualfuckmate I don't normally talk about my past , I don't have Facebook either ... I'm a private person but one day I hope to write a book maybe I should name it the same name as your username

@TiredPony I looked up to my mother , she wore ripped jeans so I got a pair of scissors and ripped mine at around age 7 and I would also try to look after her at that age too . The love was never reciprocal though . Our relationship was one-sided .As a teen I treated her disrespectfully and never heard the last of it as an adult

Hi.
Was there any other adults around that looked out for you or minded you? Do you have siblings?

@Corcra my grandparents didn't know and they didn't have a relationship with my mum , the neighbors knew but didn't get involved and her friends were on drugs and didn't get involved . I have 3 younger siblings

@Corcra my grandparents

Be curious to discover people who have been through a similar situation ... I know Kerry Katona had similar thing happen to her but unfortunately she couldn't get off the drugs ...

Oh Lola.. you are so brave to have come out of this and determined to want to provide a better life for your kids. You are incredible.

@ILoveHumanity addiction is hard to overcome and each case is individual. We are all individuals but please look within and see your strength . Try to Laugh and love and there are never people who go so far down they can't be saved . I wish my mother had made better choices but she's an individual and there's reasons . .. she was a child once too ...I can't have a relationship with her though unfortunately.