Mum has both physical and mental health issues - a lot of mental health though. Has a diagnosis of BPD and 'hysterical' personality disorder but I am 99% convinced the latter is not used now, as its an awful name. Mum takes seizures, has asthma, temporal lobe brain damage, anxiety, migraines, arthritis, vertigo, depression and some cognitive issues.
Sister is severely autistic with severe learning difficulties. She's more agressive than anything else. She's in long term residential care as mum couldn't meet her needs. Not sure how permanent her setting is as its run by a charity.
My school weren't supportive until I was 17. One teacher was lovely and I used to sit in her classroom after school to do my homework. I think she knew there were problems. Primary school knew exactly what was happening but said they didn't want to interfere (years later).
I passed my exams however, and have a 2:1 degree somehow (uni were exceptionally supportive).
Mum has said she doesn't want me as her carer however social work have said v little they can do, if anything, and it isn't great. I have managed to move out but come back as often as I can (weekly or fortnightly) and phone all the time. When I'm home Mum's needs are huge and when I'm not there I know she doesn't eat well or take her meds regularly etc. There's no-one else to help really.
How do I feel about my life?
Worried - always worried. Scared of what the future holds. I want a family of my own, I want to travel, socialise, all sorts but I can't see how I can fit it together. I know if I did go on holiday or something I'd feel incredibly guilty. At the moment I feel I'm being left behind though - 27 and no partner or children - and worried in the future I'll be alone.