Please help. I have been married to husband for eight years. We have a daughter together and tbh if we didn't, I would have left him several times over. In many ways (and on paper) he is the perfect man - he is conscientious, works hard, very hands on as a dad - he can be extremely patient and loving with our daughter - and he has supported me financially for the last two years while I have been finding my feet in my career.
I know, he sounds like a dream, right??!!
But several times a week - and often several times a day - we find ourselves unable to see eye-to-eye. He isn't very good at expressing his emotions, which can lead to him shutting down and becoming very clinical and detached whenever me or my daughter get upset with his behaviour.
I spent the formative parts of my childhood in an extremely strict boarding school and had extremely controlling and strict parents who made my life quite unhappy. For this reason, I am perhaps hyper-sensitive to anyone who tries to control me. I find it very hard to be 'myself' around my husband sometimes, and I find him overly critical of me. When he berates me for something that I have done, if I try to reason with him, he ends up swearing at me and then when I try to talk to him about why that's upsetting and slightly abusive, he then mocks me, by saying that I'm droning on.
Needless to say, this has eroded any love / attraction I feel for him. I sometimes wonder if he is threatened by me in some way, and can only express that through anger.
I think the thing I find most difficult about our relationship is that I feel slightly gagged - that whenever I try to talk to him about the way he treats me, he totally shuts down, and doesn't make any effort to engage with what I'm talking about. I feel that it means we can't improve things.
I have contemplated leaving him so many times I am boring myself. I would do, were it not for our daughter. I loved him once, but to be honest I now don't really feel much for him; I think he is emotionally repressed which affects our r'ship in so many ways. He is also slightly anal about things like how clean the house is (while never actually cleaning the house,) NEVER organises date nights for us, NEVER instigates sex, and doesn't have many friends, which means we don't have a social life as a couple.
Occasionally we can have a laugh together but because I never know when he is going to flip out about something I say I find that when I spend time with him I am very wary and slightly uncomfortable about him criticising me.
I don't know why I'm posting on here really. I'm just so unhappy in this marriage. It's been eight years and they've been mostly unhappy, I can't contemplate this for the rest of my life, yet my daughter is so important to me. Please help. I just want advice. :(
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How can I talk to my husband without him mocking me?
bumtibum · 02/12/2017 21:30
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