DH was shocked when I told him not only the (reasonable) precautions I take but how the (perceived) threat of violence, and ultimately, rape is ever present and kicks in with what to him seems an innocuous situation.
For example, we were walking through a small park one night. There was a group of lads sat near the path by one entrance just chatting. As we walked past they got louder. I’m instantly on high alert - were they trying to get our attention? Were they coming closer? What other noises could I hear. Carried on, nothing happened, all good. No change in my behaviour.
When I explained what had gone through my mind at the same time as carrying on the conversation with him, he was speechless. I am a confident person, I do walk home at night because I won’t be cowered by the actions of a few. DH fully supports this although many disagree or are uncomfortable with my stance.
And, as a biological female, that thought process and learning to keep a tiny bit of headspace on constant alert is something you learn from such a young age. That’s what it ‘feels’ like to be a woman. (One of them.)