Sending sympathy and warm wishes your way, @PepeLePew and @TattiePants !
It amazes and intrigues me that so many people on this thread have mentioned ADHD. I don't have an official diagnosis yet (the waiting list is long) but I'm increasingly convinced that I have it. I have long felt as though my life runs along rather Jekyll and Hyde lines. On the Jekyll side, I'm trying to perform the roles of respectable mum/person who holds down a responsible job/good citizen/good partner/good friend/good neighbour. On the Hyde side, my head feels like pure chaos, and I am late/anxious/depressed/overwhelmed/exhausted/whatever. Naturally I have impostor syndrome and feel like the Hyde side is the real one and the more functional side is the fake one. Realising I probably have ADHD has already helped me be kinder to myself, as someone else said. I'm trying to change my mental narrative from 'why am I so fucked up compared to all the functioning people around me?' to 'wow, well done me for managing to get by when my brain is constantly trying to sabotage me' 😂
I really should read more about ADHD and strategies to manage it. Somewhat ironically, I first realised I probably had it because I'm a uni lecturer and I started getting more and more student support plans designed to help me support my students with ADHD. When I read the support plans, it was like a light dawning 😂
I have also wrestled with drinking too much, and have close family members who are in active addiction (to use the AA/NA lingo). Apparently people with ADHD are more vulnerable to substance addiction, so that is interesting too. I'm a long term member of AA and NA and have met so many extraordinary and inspiring people there. I think there is still a big taboo around substance abuse and that is a shame, because it really does affect people from all walks of life, and there is a lot of help out there once you're brave enough to reach out for it.
Anyway it has helped me to see that so many of the intelligent and bookish people on this thread have links to ADHD as well, whether in their own right or via family members.
Back to books: I have a small claim to fame in that I know Emily Wilson, who translated the Iliad and the Odyssey. We were in grad school together. She is an amazing person, an extraordinary scholar and a phenomenal translator. @ÚlldemoShúl I can't believe you prefer the Iliad to the Odyssey though! How is that possible? Ha. The Odyssey to my mind is the ancestor of the modern novel. I've read Emily's translation of the Odyssey and it's brilliant, as is her introduction. I have her Iliad translation but haven't got round to reading it yet (argh). Incidentally, it's definitely a verse translation rather than a prose one.