Just to give a bit of back ground I split from my ex 3years ago we had 3 children together I met someone else and we had a baby last year my children from previous relationship saw there dad any time they wanted to he had offered them all to move in with him also told the youngest that I was only looking after her while he was at work got the kids to all call his house home anyway a few months ago my now 15 year old decided to go and live with his dad I found this very hard and don’t agree with him being there their dad works 12hr shifts 6-7 days /week he is not there when they get up in the mornings and is not there until after 6pm and he is in his bed by 8pm he’s not parenting them and just hands them money to feed themselves and spend on what ever they like my son has started vaping and no longer attends school, a few weeks ago my 12 year old daughter ran away to her dads she was having problems at school that we were working on anyway that day I made her get ready and go to school she didn’t want to go so when she left to go to school she went to her dads instead and has been there since she has been to school for 3 half days since then and I don’t get to see either of the older kids my heart is broken im not functioning well im trying to focus on my other 2 children age 5 who I take to visit her dad and my baby just turned 1 my heat is broken and I don’t know what to do I’m scared I’m going to lose my other 2 as well I can’t go through this again I’ve been thinking about giving my 5 year old to my ex so at least they’ll be together and giving my baby to his dad he’s young enough he’ll forget , then I was just going to leave I don’t know where I have nowhere to go I thought I was a good mum to my kids , they were always clean , never went without anything I wanted them to have everything I didn’t growing up I took them holidays, days out they didn’t want for anything the only things I asked of them was to go to school tidy there rooms and be respectful of each other I don’t know what ive done my son says he prefers to be at his dads because he gets to do whatever he wants and my daughter won’t speak to me