Oh people! I really feel sad at reading your messages as it reminds me of the situation that I was in for 8 of the 10 years my marriage lasted.
The truth is, you will never know if splitting/staying is the right decision, even after years of happiness after the split, you may find yourself wondering if things would have been different if only... (fill the blank).
Yes, life after divorce is not particularly easy, especially if you have taken the decision to stop working to care for the family. But is doable. Yes, children get upset and take some time to adjust to the situation but they do adjust and in most occasions they grow up happier away of the daily grind of resentment that stems from staying in an unhappy marriage out of duty, guilt, financial fears, responsibility or even a spirit of self sacrifice. Really, my son is much better of living with separated parents than he was seeing us so fed up with each other all the time.
And contrary to what many may think, if you are going to split anyway, the sooner the better, children find it easier to cope with divorce the younger they are.
I remember my last years as a married woman and even with all the challenges that being a lone parent brings, the difference is enormous, I look years younger, I have dreams, I have a lot of financial problems but I still have no regrets as my life is not perfect but there is HOPE. This little word brings all the significance to my life, after spending 8 years taking one day at a time. Simply, I was dead inside, now I am pretty much alive and looking forward to whatever fate throws at me.
Have a I found a better man? well, it depends what a "better man" means. Admittedly my ex was handsome, intelligent, rich, a good friendm and an extrovert who commanded a lot of respect. But, I was not happy with him. I knew I was not going to find anyone like him, but instead I found someone who wasn't like him but who has made me laugh non stop for over three years and who has been a father to my son in a way his dad never was. My ex, is now happy with another woman maybe thinking the same as I do: Why on Earth did we wait so long?
One thing that you get to know after divorce is that nothing is permanent. It may be that things change and I end up again on my own, but frankly, I much rather be sitting on my own by the seaside writing my memories with a Margarita in hand at 80, than waiting for someone to die to be free.
Life is short and we are not here to waste it.