Christmas eve back in 2008, I was at a midnight mass service, reading the creed, and suddenly thought 'I don't believe any of this any more'. It was like reading a recipe. That was after being brought up in a charismatic baptist church, teaching sunday school, being involved in the worship band....same all through Uni and my 20s. And then suddenly it didn't make sense any more. So I stepped away from church for eleven years. I think doubt / questions are perfectly reasonable as part of a faith journey. People often say the opposite of faith is doubt - I don't think so, I think the opposite of faith is certainty. Faith is the belief in what we cannot see, but alongside that come questions - is this real, does God exist, why does crappy stuff happen? For me questions were around being gay, and being brought up in a church environment that taught that being gay was wrong.
In hindsight, it was necessary for me to step out of church for that period - and I tried quite hard not to be a Christian through that time - I had to 'deconstruct' what I'd been brought up with and see if there really was truth in it and what that might mean for me.
Ultimately I ended up going back to church six years ago, because I wanted to, not because I thought I ought to, and my faith and relationship with God has completely changed for the better. Crappy stuff still happens to me (my wife of 19 years left me for someone else last year), but I haven't questioned 'why does God let these things happen'. God's been with me through it all; in the people around me, and in the good things that have come out of it (which seems strange to say, but that's what's happened).
Nowhere in the bible does it say that when we're Christians life will be rosy and only good things will happen.... we live in the real world, where people die, hurt us, we lose out jobs... all sorts of crap. We're not immune to any of that, and Christians and church institutions are sometimes the people and places that hurt us. That's not to diminish anything you've been though - far from it - more to say that (sadly) other christians can and do hurt us, and aren't always a good example of Christ. I could drive myself nuts wondering why my partner left me, but actually, that's for her to figure out with God, and I need to let that go and just walk my own path (to sound a bit cheesy!).
If you're part of a church at the moment, it might be worth talking to the vicar, if they seem like a decent person, or a trusted 'someone else' - it sounds like you need to untangle all of this with someone who can do it gently and kindly with you. If you're in the right headspace, I'd maybe suggest praying, even if you're not sure what you believe, but you might not be in that place, and that's fine.
You could also try noticing where God might be at work..... in your OP you say that you take your worries to God and only ever get the same answers.... sometimes it's about learning to notice the ways in which God is at work or speaks to us. Very rarely is it a 'bolt from on high'....often God speaks & works in much quieter ways.... through other people, things we read, through situations, sometimes in completely unexpected ways. It's about listening, and learning notice those times; the little whispers that can often go unnoticed.
It could be that you start by saying to God 'speak to me today' and then trying to be aware of little nudges, how you feel, things that happen, and so on (though be careful not to read 'God' into everything!!!)