I couldn't bear to watch the programme as I still find it hard to live with the termination I had at 6 weeks, 5 years ago.
Mine, like Mears described, was a Medical TOP, with a pill where you are fully conscious throughout and it is like a self-induced miscarriage. In many ways I wish i had have had the surgical version so that I wouldn't have had to go through the harrowing guilt ridden experience whilst awake. I remember feeling the 'products of conception' pass and I was hit by the enormity and huge regret in true 'ton of bricks' fashion. Then having to take the sanitary towel (provided by the hospital) with my aborted foetus on it to the nurse for inspection was just hideous. For me it was the most awful thing I have ever experienced and will always be tinged with deep regret. Of course I will never know whether the pregnancy would've even survived to term had I have made a different decision but that never stops me remembering (and marking) the due date of the baby that never was (May 1st).
I felt that the programme was likely just to compound the guilt feelings further and deepen the wounds inflicted by that choice made 5 years ago. For me, knowing that when a termination occurs, the foetus dies, is horrifying enough. I do not need to see it portrayed in intimate 'live' detail, IYSWIM.
However, despite my experience and subsequent feelings towards it, I am still pro-choice, although I really do wish that the cut-off date for abortion was lowered. My second pregnancy was lost at 24 weeks, she died in-utero at 24 weeks and was delivered at 26 weeks. She was a whole, but tiny, baby. A complete human being, knowing that she was at a viable age and that up to a few days before 24 weeks she could still have been terminated fills me with horror. Having seen a 24 week foetus 'in the flesh' makes the cut off date abhorrent.